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Holy shit my eyes are falling out of my head and I'm not even tired I'm not even tired and people are falling asleep and people are being woken up but I'm not even tired no I'm not thankyou very much but damn do I ever need a cigarette or a glass of wine or both maybe both would make my brain stop but I'm not even tired and beirut is beautiful I could cry right now but I won't because my eyes will fall out they will they will they will I'm fucking telling you that none of this makes sense so what the hell are you me us even doing maybe we just all belong there at that place that I should have stayed but I couldn't no no no not until I did this but here I am and maybe sleep would help but what is sleep if your dreams are worse than being awake I'd like to know what to do when being awake and being asleep are one and the same let's just go to that place I'm still there yes I am yes I am but fucking believe me I'm not even tired I'm awake and finally I'm awake and finally all the nothing is making sense or maybe it's finally just nothing nothing at all nothing at all a fake and a lie and it's nothing I promise I do really I do it's nothing.