Leda,
Today we went into a used bookstore in Hipsterland and they had Le Monde. So I picked it up and tried to make sense of it. And ofcourse I teared up. Ofcourse. And then I looked for All Story, but they didn't have it. Is there anything lamer than hiding in the science section, reading the titles of astronomy books, and crying? I wouldn't call it homesick, but I do miss having a home. Not a house. Not a bed and a TV and a shower. Not even anything I've had for the past couple years. I miss that feeling of security, happiness, whatever it is. Those moments when you can honestly say "This is enough. This, right here, is what I need." I hate that those moments come so rarely, and always with the people that mean the most but you see the least.
Ugh. Anyways. Done being funky.
We decided to splurge tonight on a cheap hotel. I've never been so excited to lie around and watch bad TV.
I've become a master at rolling cigarettes. Very good, since Obama is raising taxes on all forms of tobacco. Meaning that rolling is the only way I can afford this habit, and I don't plan on quitting. No no no. I'm still as supportive as I was at the get-go. And unless he pulls something scary Bush-like, I'll continue on that way. Now I should stop, before I rant about how ridiculous our country is.
Leda, I miss you.
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Hey Lauren... Its Jen Lake. I know its been a LONG time since you and I have spoke, but I felt compelled to comment on your blog. I dont even begin to know where you are in your life right now, but I think what you are doing is an awesome thing. I wish I would have gotten the guts to just pick up and leave... not look back. I think it would have righted a few wrongs in my head... or something? Anyway, I hope you are happy and you are staying true to who you are. I love the Lauren I once knew. :)
ReplyDeleteOh the Lauren I was...
ReplyDeleteSo much has changed. So very odd.
I miss those days, though.
I miss you, too! And the hipsters don't know how uncool they are, not having All Story.
ReplyDeleteOh, and what might be lamer:
ReplyDeleteSitting in a bathroom stall in the Louvre right next door to the Mona Lisa and all the Delacroix, sobbing.